wow disppointment at its best

okay, so I'm taking a break from cleaning my room...and heres why

I'm cleaning out my closet...and I find this big box of stuff I had saved from high school, and all I have to say is wow


I can't believe I used to be able to write like that....so well...

I had an awesome vocabulary....

I was reading a bunch of in-class essays I did for history classes and I found my personal statement...the last time I wrote it..which was, obviously the best version, that I submitted to USC. too bad I sent it in a day to late. I read letters from West Point, and correspondance between me and them...too bad I never went to take the DODMERB in time. Reminders of how much of a fuckup I was becoming at the midpoint of my senior year...and since then...nuthin but foul-ups. dammit

I read a couple copies of diff. rec letters I had from different teachers...that was weird...I forgot I used to be like that.

I was going through my high school grades, SATs and all that shit....and different things I wrote for diff classes about how much I yearn for the opportunity to go to a good school and succeed in life. Well, dammit, I'm such an asshole. It seems like all I'm doing is fuckin up and being completely apathetic.

God, I'm such a dissapointment.