my tongue is burnt

well crazy..wanna know what i been up to?? some gayass shiet

well the weekend was pretty coo....now that i think about it that partee friday was of the hook, kinda...hehe, but yea man for real this weekend was not worth the pain i must endure now

so sunday...i was up at 3pm i believe...super duper duper sunks...super late...do nothing all day..procrastinate procrastinate..then finally start my debate thiong like at 10 or 11pm....like an idiot...so i do that....7am arrives and im nowhere near being done...but i must go for i have class at 8...so i "finish"...go to school and give the hands-down most horrible presentation/delivery/performance of my life.....wow it made me think of how the kids i used to not be able to understand in elemntary school...shit even high school felt...u know..id come to class....prepared..had my project/report done like a day ahead...had been working on it for a week or so...or whatever..just ahead of on time..or ontime actually...and so i'd show up to class..like a few of my classmates..prepared to turn in a grade A assignment....but there were always those kids who for some unknown reason didnt like doing homework...didnt care about reports..did things at the last minute...would stand up in the front of the classroom trying to give a presentation not knowing what the hell theyre doing....and id be thinking to myself...what the hell are they doing? i couldnt understand how they couldnt apply themselves and be good students. now i am one of them....ever since like middle of sophomore year of high school actually...for some reason after so many years of trying to be the best in the class, the smartest, the hardest worker, and usually not having to try much and achieving those things.....i gave up...i didnt care anymore...i turned into those barely achieving if not underachieving retards i used to kind of make fun of....its sad that nobody really thinks of me as the smart guy who was also a clown....even though i used to hate it....i kinda miss it. now im just the clown...the clown that sings...and dances....and "parties" (which is stupid cuz i never attended a damn party til like the end of senior year....and still dont get out much)....its pretty fucking pathetic...i wanna be smart chris again dammit....but not a geek cuz i was never a geek....hahahahah i made fun of them too...like i didnt understand how most people could either just be smart/geeks/losers or "cool"/pathetic/popular/stupid.....like i always kinda found it easy to combine the two...err...i think....i dunno the point of all this rambling is i want to be an A student againt dammit....screw work...work is fuccin me up sick like...i dont need to work...why the hell am i doing it....i dread going to work...i hate thinking about how i have to go to work tomorrow....work is stupid...i dont NEEED that extra money...its just extra....i got to learn to live without it again....hmmm....maybe after christmas

anyway, before i began to ramble..i was saying...so i began falling asleep in my third class....but managed to get through it...so i get out at 1130am...go to my car its sprinkling dammit...then i drive somewhere.....i forgot.....then to arby's....then to the gas station...i eat my arby's and kock the funk out around 1pm on a full stomach....DAMN!

so i wake up around 9pm....thats what i call a nap....haha 8 hours.
sux cuz i didnt wanna sleep that freaking long..i should put my alarm on or told my parents to wake me up (but that wouldnt have worked anyway). so now here i am..once again procrastinating while i should be reading an BSing my way through a term paper. dammit dammit dammit. please someone help me stop cussing....hahaha that came out of nowhere...but really...i dunno why i have my periods of being a sailor and others where its all gravy. oh well..tee-weezies....i'm out.

ja rule is back

hahaha sounds funny but its true...u heard it here first...ja rule is back with some tite ass shit....i always thought it was freakin stupid that people started hating him just cuz 50 cent was like the new big thing and he said he was a punk....i mean thats so stupid...like is 50 cent ur homie or something? anyway...haha ja rule's new video/single is freakin dope...i dunno if its on the radio or mtv or whatever yet but its on launch.com..so check it out

Ja Rule - "Clap Back"

why??? why didnt i do what i said i did

friday...halloween pardee..tite ass shit...frat house at csf..phi kappa tau (i think) ...i saw an old ass friend...a drunk Chris...(C-Rod)...role model for all band geeks...haha that foos a pimp...hes tite..arroz con pollo chingao....haha angela

saturday..some stupid ass shit pardee...i mean it was coo...but totally not even close being worth missing quality homework time...dammit. sonofabitch i need to stay committed or imma fail this quarter

damn man...this song..kills me...wut like sophomore year???

My First Love
by Avant


Silhouette, of a perfect frame,
Shadows of your smile, will always remain (Will always remain).
Beginners love, soon fades away (Oh Baby)
We go on...
I Will long as...

(Long as I live)
Long as I live, you will be my, (my first love).
Oh baby you and only you.
(Long as I live)
Long as I live (my first love) you will be my first love.
And I choose you again.

I'm keeping no Candy-Coated Valentine,
Memories of you, you when you were mine.
A tarnished ring on a tarnished chain,
Times keep changing come sun or rain.

(Long as I Live)
Long as I live, you will be (my first love)
My first love and my only love.
(Long as I live)
Long as I live,(my first love).
Ohhh, you will always be my,
Oh, be my first love.

(Long as I Live)
Long as I live, you will be (my first love)
My first love and my only love.
(Long as I live)
Long as I live,(my first love).
Ohhh, you will always be my,
Oh, be my first love.

A tarnished ring on a tarnished chain,
Avant:
times keep changing come sun or rain.

(Long as I Live)
Long as I live, you will be (my first love)
My first love and my only love.
(Long as I live)
Long as I live,(my first love).
Ohhh, you will always be my,
Oh, be my first love.

revival of rollin 19 and rollin 15

crazy...i was goin through my stacks of CDs and revived from the shelves two random mix cds....

background info...throughout junior and senior year of high school i began making rollin...the anthologies...haha i just called it that right now...but yea it began as soon as i got my liscence...back in march of 2001.....with my lisence came two mix cds..."Rollin 1: C-Walkin Trax" and "Rollin II: tite-ass shiet" well i forgot what the real name of the vol 2 was....but it was something to that effect. point is...by the time graduation came along i had made...i believe about 30 volumes....oh and the rollin series was strictly hip-hop and r&b...i had a seperate line for rock music....but anyway..wow...each CD is like trapped in time if you know what i mean....for example...rollin 15, which i was listening to a lil' while ago sported trxxx such as Warren G's - "Lookin at You" (if you listened to power or the beat around ca. 12/21/2001 (the date the CD was made)...then its a sure bet you heard the song oh..about 10 times a day..but perhaps you dont know it by name....also on there was mystikal's "Bouncin' Back (Bumpin Me Against The Wall)" , Lil' Bow Wow's "Thank You" feat. Jagged Edge and Nelly Furtado's "Turn Off the Lights" (Remix) feat. Timbaland & Ms. Jade. crazy shit haw?? wow...but rollin 19 really got me right now with the song that is currently playing...*NSYNC - "Girlfriend" (Remix) feat, Nelly....wow how sad/happy all at the same time...ahh dammit there i go again getting in my weird depressed nostalgic moods....also there is on this CD Jagged Edge's "I Got It 2" feat Nas, DJ Quik's "Trouble", Craig David's "7 Days", IMX's - "First Time" and Warren G's "Ghetto Village". That's some downloading materials for all you guys to get.

i guess the whole thing about the sad/happy/depressed/nostalgic thing i experience is that there's more to these CDs than just music. these CDs were in my CD player 24/7 everywhere i went...on my morning rides from baldwin park to bishop amat in the mornings....in the amat parking lot...in the football locker room...to and from the football games....to in-n-out, weekend parties....nights spent at home....listening to them while doing "homework" (chillin on the computer" and...i remember the emotions i was feeling at the time in my life...the stress of college apps....ap classes...love interests....family problems....army shit....kairos xi....trip to las vegas....graduation....prom and dances n stuff.....just plain staying up til 3 am watching MTV videos and downloading music...on school nites...damn this sux...does college suck this much for me that i miss high school THAAAT damn much....dammit. im glad im rushing in the spring. thank you...college social life here i come....yes it IS possible...EVEN at cal poly.

wow....GRRRRREAT night for basketball

109-93...LAAAAAAKERS!!!

damn was thios one damn good game....Malooooooone...having a freakin X-cellent night...an assist away from a triple double...damn he was badass..commandin the court like a mofo....shaq diesel handling his ish up in the paint, rackin up the points...fish having a dope first half puttin up them 3s, george crazy mofo having a bomb game despite his f'd up ankle, and...who else but the great G.P. playing selflessly yet still rackin up them points.....he was rackin up those assist...he made some bomb ass plays...sux ...one of em..it woulda been so tite...but fish missed the 3...ahh well.....GREAT WAY TO START THE SEASON.........damn those journalists trying to stir the pot of controversy wit shaq and kobe.....nevertheless, the terrible 3 we saw tonight will soon become the fantastic 4 in LA....bringin back the championship....damn im pumped for this season....funk yea

thank God for cilia

cilia?? is that right...eh i forgot, its been a year since bio....and i dont even think we learned that...so in reality...4 years since bio..mr. beck..

well yea, thank God for those hairs in our trachea....or i truly would inhale pure crap...all the ash is caught by those good old lil' hairs in our throats. yay cilia!....haha thats funny if thats not even the right word for the things im talking about

anyway, nothing much has been up...friday went to go see umm.....scary movie 3 ...oh yea already talked about that...

then saturday...went to work at 12...got out at 5...was supposed to go to this arts event for one of my classes but it was retarded...didnt even know how to get there...so i said ehh...and instead came home, showered and went out to anaheim wit jose...we were gonna go to a club...but then instead just went to downtown disney to check it out....yea first time there....and we were there for a whole great 10 minutes because ash was blowing in our eyes and i swear it hurt..and inhaling poillution....thank you arsenic assholes....hahah thats funny...i bet someone readiun this probably reads that right now and just accepted it because they know what im talking about...but arsenic is actually like chemicals or some shit..haha yolks on you. but yea, arsonist assholes./...correct?? no??? yes....hmmm

so yea, after that we went to the house of blues..it was gonna be a club, so we were gonna go but then i think its open air..so not a good idea....so we went to hooters...spent a couple hours there till closing..good stuff.... teeweezers

sunday, woke up all late....super sux cuz my parents went to church super early without waking me up and so it sux cuz i couldnt go to life teen mass cuz we wer leaving for scary farm at 6. super sux..missed mass...bad boy man....

so joser came over, then we departed to the wesco mall, picked up joel and met uyp wit the peeps....then off to knotts...

damn it was way more fun than last year....pounding 2 bottles of alize on the street corner next to moto cops...great stuff...oh and being told by security we cant chill in my car and pound...haha joel had to toss his out....joser hid his heinikeg. haha...but i was a very very sly detective...haha with big pockets. and i passed them their good fortune.

so we get into the park, and im buzzin it, and im trying to hit up leedogg to get the tix. finally highland picks up and comes to the gate wit the tix...we get in, and within 5 minutes i am almost kicked out...one of the monsters scared the crap out of me...and my "wet brain" thinks to shove him all hard put my hands up and say "what the funk punk!??" except not funk.....damn that was scary...a split sevcond passes and i realize what i had done and try to give him props and offer my apologies...but the bastard was a dickhead and said "you know what happens when u lay your hands on me....you leave!.." and i was like ah screw you and we jammed all quick....hahaha jose and joel didnt believe i was gonna do it....but a quaint little trash can met its maker when i unleashed my lizard upon it....hahahahahah with people and monsters passing by...halfway into the act..i got scared again like what if a security person passed by and saw me?? 2nd opportuniy to be escorted out within 10 minutes......and the funny thing was the little boys room was a mere 40 feet away. but i couldnt hold it hahaha good times. so we meet up the peeps at this ride...i forgot what its called..but it was dope merry-go-round in the sky-mixed with flying saucer...occupanied by my buzz....great combo....the mazes were tite..."extra scary"...due to enhanced senses.

good times...we left when the park closed right after eating out funnel cakes....yum. gasalicious.

i get home around3..knock out at 4....couldnt wait to be up in 3 hrs for class

so go to class monday...coolio...leave school..work from 12 to 830...titeness...after work head over to starbucks....took the initiative to make myself study...i cant study at home...good example..right now...what am i doing? updating LJ...watching the laker game insteadof doing my mathematical applications for engineers homework. dammit. so anywy..i see meeeeertha and leilani there..but i keep to myself and sip on my frap reading Chinua Achebe's "Things Fall Apart"...a great book about pre-colonial Africa and how it was raped by the europeans and ish like that. INN-TER-STING. so yea...joel meets me there aorund 11...i continue reading chillaxin....then we go outside...stay til closing...then we wet to dennys on puente and azusa so i could commence studying...i had a lumberjack slam and about 6 cups of coffee....wow is caffeine a legal drug or what?? anyway, instead of studying we had one of our most intellectually stimulating nights ever....for like 4 hours... dayam. learning how different people think....learning that i need to take chances and get over it. damn its a hard thing to do...and the 1st step is the hardest one to take....thanks joel...and though u wont read this..thanks rex for our convo earlier at work too.

i go home and watch cold pizza on espn...dope show...its 4 am...and theyre talking about kobe's comments on shaq...man kobe's stupid dude....whyt he always gotta be talking shit...and then he goes straight to the fat card...like fucc dude..just man up, dont take ur shit out on other people.....man up and play the game biatch...as much of a dope player he is...he needs to shut his trap......even though Shaq kinda started it...both of em just need to do the damn thing n play some ball like champs

so yea, then i was X-tatic tues. morning when my mother woke me at 730 though i have class at 10...so i get dressed quickly and my eyes are burning like sick from my lovely 3 hr nap...and im off to school..get good parking...its dope...head off to the new union..r4ead two more chapters of my book while sippin on a sobe energy drink...but i must knock out...i knock out on the couch for an hour...im awoken like 3 times this stupid chinito bvehind me had the loudest po0lyphonice ringtone in the world...and he had to sit down next to a sleeping person...what an inconsiderate ace. so yea when i wake up before class, i open my eyes and some girl is just straight up stariung at me but as soon as i spot her she looks away all fast..stupid ho.....haha she was hot though...but why she gotta bother the sleepy?? hehe. so yea off to my 10 am class...good stuff
get out at 12, chillax with olivas...i almost kill my phone because it was just being an ace to me today..going in and out of recpetion so annopyingly...crazy ish..saw marissa again for like 2 cents...crazyness....chilled with olivas while i muched on a bacon swiss....then when he left for his class at one i went inside to read more of my book..im proud of myself....then see the homeboy donald and he calls me over to chill with some of the pike brothers...it was dope getting to talk to them getting to know them n stuff....sux i missed the game they invited me to today...aww well...i had ish to do...so yea i jam around 130...and i head over to the lil museum on campus for a STOP THE VIOLENCE exhibit. it was some powerful stuff....man guys that hit girls are such pussies. thats so jacked up....these women are like scarred for the rest of their lives..i met one of the artists outside who started crying when she saw me...i felt so bad...she asked me if my name was michael...i said no and said im chris and stuff and she apologized for her tears and told me i looked exactly like her son who she hasnt seen in years because he lives with his dad....the man whos face she painted in one of her large works of art in which she basically depicts the "face of evil" in her life....i mean what do u say to something like that?? i mean i was commending her work...shes a real talented lady and i offered my condolences..but what do u say to a lady who starts tearing cuz you're a spitting image of her estranged son...that sux so bad...but i part because i have to go home ya know....as im walking through parking lot F...i feel someone waking behind me....its this girl heidi who graduated a year after me...u know who i'm talking bout C....teehee...but yea i was like talking to her....shes a really shy girl....hahah it was funny though...i was persistent in starting a friendly conversatong with her...she just would give the shortest responses on earth...but shed kinda laugh a few times cuz i'd be my dumb self...but yea she was super unresponsive...jeez man i was just trying to be friendly....haha though she is one of the most amazingly cute girls ive seen in a while. anywhoot...i get to my car....jam...come home n knock out for like 3 hours....wake up...off to wallgreens to get my camera developed...haha burrly....its kairos pix. haha so yea, then i go to supercuts next door n get my ish trimmed...yay...then strbucks to get a caffe latte with an extra shot of espresso...which explains why im typing "villainously" hahaha....am i even using that word correctly? is it a word? perhaps. so yea, now watching the laker game , typing in my LJ...and will soon begin my engineering math hw....teeweezies...oh yea, you can wake up now...i'm done.