my tongue is burnt

well crazy..wanna know what i been up to?? some gayass shiet

well the weekend was pretty coo....now that i think about it that partee friday was of the hook, kinda...hehe, but yea man for real this weekend was not worth the pain i must endure now

so sunday...i was up at 3pm i believe...super duper duper sunks...super late...do nothing all day..procrastinate procrastinate..then finally start my debate thiong like at 10 or 11pm....like an idiot...so i do that....7am arrives and im nowhere near being done...but i must go for i have class at 8...so i "finish"...go to school and give the hands-down most horrible presentation/delivery/performance of my life.....wow it made me think of how the kids i used to not be able to understand in elemntary school...shit even high school felt...u know..id come to class....prepared..had my project/report done like a day ahead...had been working on it for a week or so...or whatever..just ahead of on time..or ontime actually...and so i'd show up to class..like a few of my classmates..prepared to turn in a grade A assignment....but there were always those kids who for some unknown reason didnt like doing homework...didnt care about reports..did things at the last minute...would stand up in the front of the classroom trying to give a presentation not knowing what the hell theyre doing....and id be thinking to myself...what the hell are they doing? i couldnt understand how they couldnt apply themselves and be good students. now i am one of them....ever since like middle of sophomore year of high school actually...for some reason after so many years of trying to be the best in the class, the smartest, the hardest worker, and usually not having to try much and achieving those things.....i gave up...i didnt care anymore...i turned into those barely achieving if not underachieving retards i used to kind of make fun of....its sad that nobody really thinks of me as the smart guy who was also a clown....even though i used to hate it....i kinda miss it. now im just the clown...the clown that sings...and dances....and "parties" (which is stupid cuz i never attended a damn party til like the end of senior year....and still dont get out much)....its pretty fucking pathetic...i wanna be smart chris again dammit....but not a geek cuz i was never a geek....hahahahah i made fun of them too...like i didnt understand how most people could either just be smart/geeks/losers or "cool"/pathetic/popular/stupid.....like i always kinda found it easy to combine the two...err...i think....i dunno the point of all this rambling is i want to be an A student againt dammit....screw work...work is fuccin me up sick like...i dont need to work...why the hell am i doing it....i dread going to work...i hate thinking about how i have to go to work tomorrow....work is stupid...i dont NEEED that extra money...its just extra....i got to learn to live without it again....hmmm....maybe after christmas

anyway, before i began to ramble..i was saying...so i began falling asleep in my third class....but managed to get through it...so i get out at 1130am...go to my car its sprinkling dammit...then i drive somewhere.....i forgot.....then to arby's....then to the gas station...i eat my arby's and kock the funk out around 1pm on a full stomach....DAMN!

so i wake up around 9pm....thats what i call a nap....haha 8 hours.
sux cuz i didnt wanna sleep that freaking long..i should put my alarm on or told my parents to wake me up (but that wouldnt have worked anyway). so now here i am..once again procrastinating while i should be reading an BSing my way through a term paper. dammit dammit dammit. please someone help me stop cussing....hahaha that came out of nowhere...but really...i dunno why i have my periods of being a sailor and others where its all gravy. oh well..tee-weezies....i'm out.