First blog thing...explanation of truths.

***ARCHIVED FROM MYSPACE: 7/21/08***

So that second part of the title didn't make sense...

Kay, so I always considered the word blog...fat...haha, I mean, gay...but seeing it so much now, it just seems normal. So, meh, I guess I'll write one. Yea, I haven't written in my livejournal for over a month now, cuz I really don't care about it. It's pretty whack. I usually don't have much excess energy to be writing about my days, cuz when I'm done, I just wanna relax, not catalog it. So yea, plus I don't really care bout other peoples' lives....hahah nah just messin. Just lotsa shady people on there I've realized, so nuff bout that. And then there r those whose days I enjoy...or rather, don't mind....reading about, because it's interesting, or cuz I haven't seen that group of people in a while...or cuz there r cool pictures. Yah, and when there's pics, I just look at those and dont really read the actual entry...cept for george, he usually has some cool shit to say, and he doesn't overwrite. So it's coolo....yes, culo.

Super delirious mode because I haven't slept all night...went to the gym, then to BJs with all the AB peeps, new and O.G..., cuz sheila's leaving wescove...sessioned with rex and chris b....damn that was fun as always..."it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday" and "in the still of the night"...and when I got bored ...carl thomas' "i wish"....so yea, then hookah with rick, jabra, david, ronnie, and david's co-twerkers...esp. that dude...ahzmar...he's a cool cat...then guill and P-NEL rolled up. damn before last night, hadn't seen phil nelson in like 3 years...crazy...so then Denny's for the second night in a row with the same peeps, haha me being ghetto as usualy, ronnie braking my water glass with tabasco, hahahah and he body rolled and cwalked and full nelson was havin a ball. raced on Beach Blvd. haha, kinda....stayed out til 5, got home, din wanna sleep right away, so I came on, checked email, downloaded music, changed my MySpace page a lil and ya, now I'm hurrrr...think Imma delete my livejournal cuz it's whack. Longest sentence ever. Oh and delete friendster...that shit's super gay.

So yea, MySpace is cool cuz it's like all in one. And like I'm talkin to people I haven't talked to in years or whatever, Amat people, AB people, Pikes, and random people I know from parties n shiet...the greatest is nasty-ass, tow-up, weird chicks n dude I've never known or heard of from like Minnesota or Alaska or China trying to add me and I'm like what the hell?

Yea, it's official, I'm delirious...maybe I should sleep cuz I've got work at 3. Meh.

wow disppointment at its best

okay, so I'm taking a break from cleaning my room...and heres why

I'm cleaning out my closet...and I find this big box of stuff I had saved from high school, and all I have to say is wow


I can't believe I used to be able to write like that....so well...

I had an awesome vocabulary....

I was reading a bunch of in-class essays I did for history classes and I found my personal statement...the last time I wrote it..which was, obviously the best version, that I submitted to USC. too bad I sent it in a day to late. I read letters from West Point, and correspondance between me and them...too bad I never went to take the DODMERB in time. Reminders of how much of a fuckup I was becoming at the midpoint of my senior year...and since then...nuthin but foul-ups. dammit

I read a couple copies of diff. rec letters I had from different teachers...that was weird...I forgot I used to be like that.

I was going through my high school grades, SATs and all that shit....and different things I wrote for diff classes about how much I yearn for the opportunity to go to a good school and succeed in life. Well, dammit, I'm such an asshole. It seems like all I'm doing is fuckin up and being completely apathetic.

God, I'm such a dissapointment.

TGIS

Thank the Almighty Lord, it's officially summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait...summer please come

dammit i want it to be summer and automatically get As in my classes without taking finals. dammit. I have so much work to do that I couldve gotten done last weekend...or all quarter...but now its all accumulated and i have to do it.SHIT my heads gonna explode